It’s hard to remember where my suffering went, most of it seems to have been cleared away today. I’ve obsessed for years, but that was because I had no perspective. I lacked a true self, I was unaware of who I really was, who I could be, what I truly needed, what was in my way or what I didn’t need, how I could help others, how faith could offer me a higher quality of life. For the last year and 6 days I’ve been in a practice.
In the beginning it was to not feel the immediate pain, now it is about staying in this present moment right now. What a concept to actually try and honor.
-To understand old patterns of thinking, to be wary and mindful of desire, hope, and most of all fear of my future, this can only be practiced. Fear in any sense, real or unreal, fear is just a word. Most of us can leap ahead into our future and poison it, whether it’s the next moment, next hour, later this night, the next day, week, month, year or years to come. For only now, I have been given the gift to practice and watch how I react to everything. For only now I can continue to practice.
Why practice? Practice allows all of the imperfections to exist and therefore allows all that is and is not, to be quite perfect. Wow, do I live in California or what?
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