Revisit

I want to quit writing even more today. I am getting behind more and more and it is becoming troublesome. -Almost unable to wake up early enough to complete all of the tasks each day. Currently I wake up at 2am. I begin with meditation, then prayers, and then I go to another place in my apartment and light candles and do more prayers. I make an omlette and pray and then eat the omlette, then I sit in silence for two hours, and no less than two hours. This sitting in silence is a non-meditative meditation. I learned this method which qualifies as a "new method" from an outlaw monk in Alaska, his name is Konk. He has changed my life in more ways than I can describe here. In essence it is about, not meditating, because even meditation is an active practice. Konk even admits that because his method has purpose it is therefore void. But he insists that his is a true practice. The others are filled with faults.

After sitting in silence I take a walk one block in my neighborhood completely naked. It’s always dark and no one is really up, so it’s never been a problem. Also I believe my neighbors are okay with it, as I’ve been in this process since I’ve lived in the building for over 11 years. There is a sacrifice that I make on my walk that I am not allowed to disclose here otherwise it discounts my process and therefore my soul. But I can say that it has affected my openness to change three fold.

I usually shower, make a melba toast and turnip sandwich and then hit the gym. Sometimes on the weekends I will forgo the gym and hit Black Top trail. It ascends 4000 feet and kicks my ass. For these hikes, I usually bring Ketchup, my 22 year old iguana. Work is work. I sell big property, and I am very good. It is however, an all day affair and generally takes me into the night with dinners and drinks, entertaining clients. Last week I entered 2nd place in sales for the quarter. Looks like someone is going to Miami, FL for the region honors in August. Barry Logan, our CFO loves the work I’m doing because he knows my numbers are legit.

Usually I get home after 10pm and I do yoga for a solid 20 minutes. These writings follow that on most occasions. At 11pm I watch the news, I love Hank Tremble and Diane Kirtz, they are an excellent, well informed, news anchor team and have been doing journalism a great service for over 23 years. Chip Hurley with sports is awesome as is Ned Hale with weather. They are the top news team in the Summer State, without them I fear my foundation would weaken.

I work endlessly on my doctorate in post traumatic nightmares also, squeezing in research when I can, often times on my iPhone between showings during my workday. Before I lay my head down, I like to play Mandolin, which I am teaching myself with the help of Mel Bays, the instruction booklet for beginners. I do an hour of prayer and a night meditation and then remember that I did all I could do for the day, it was what it was. For now I will soldier on, as I can feel the good it is doing for me. As Winston Churchill said, "It is better to have an ambitious plan than none at all."